I don’t want to know!

Or do I?

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I don’t want to know! But what if I am made aware?

I hope I never know.
Knowing comes with all sorts of burdens.

I may resent myself for not knowing sooner.
I may be unable to handle such truths.
I may become frozen with knowledge.

I am terrified just thinking of knowing!

But what if I am never informed? I want to know!

I hope I eventually know.
Not knowing comes with all sorts of burdens.

I may be called a buffoon.
I may grow tired of the eternal quest to know.
I may die never having known.

I am terrified just thinking of never knowing!

And the worst part of all is:

the more I know the more I realize I don’t know!

Help!
You see my predicament.

But which is worse?
To know or not to know.
I don’t want to know!